3:35pm: Today has not been a good day for either of us. My lack of patience didn't help one bit. I realize that they have lost the ability to filter what they say, but what a don't believe is something I read about them not knowing what they are saying. I personally believe that what comes out of their self conscious is really what they feel at the time. Example I was mopping the kitchen floor this morning, Mom came up behind me and I didn't know she was there. I accidentally bumped into her and she said "You almosted knocked me down" what I should of said is I'm sorry but since she had not let me sleep very well last night and had been very kurt to me I was a little tired. So how did I respond, well I said you shouldn't sneak up on people like that. How she responded was hurtful to me. She Said "if you didn't eat so much your butt wouldn't be so big". Yes I do have a bit of a weight problem but I don't feel I overeat. I'm very sensitive about my weight and she knows that. Because of our shaky start the whole day was tense. Lunchtime wasn't much easier. She decided that she had to much food so after I make her a nice cottage cheese salad with fruit she comes walking over to me with half her cottage cheese squished in her hands. I got upset and just walked over to the table and picked up the rest of her plate and dumped down the garbage disposal. I said your done and that is that.
The reason I am posting this negatively is because it's alright to be human and loose patience once in awhile. When that happens it's a good idea to remove yourself from the situation. Write a journey or blog like I'm doing. It helps to get your thoughts down on paper. Patience is the best way to deal with Alzheimer's but it's okay to have a bad day. Don't beat yourself over the head because of it.
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